international week of suicide prevention

This week, 8^th to 14^th of September, is the international week of suicide prevention. I also see it as a celebration of survival. Let’s face it, we ALL at some point or another have contemplated the idea of ending it all. Thinking that maybe, just maybe, peace would be found at last.

In reality I believe that it’s not fair. Not fair to give up, not fair to transfer our troubles and worries to those whom are left behind, not fair that the grief we once felt will be the burden of a loved one.

For those of us whose torment and sorrow is provoked by the behaviour of another human, life seems dark and hopeless. Knowingly that we stand alone and that our hands are tied when it comes to free ourselves from that OTHER human. Despair sets in and all seems hopeless. But is it really?

Thinking back I felt that way, I felt that if I wasn’t around anymore those I loved wouldn’t suffer at the hand of that OTHER human. I was diminished in the eyes of the treasure in my life, my son, I was judged and called names, I was described as a horrific person in his eyes. All of it was lies but they hurt my treasure, he knew that those words were far from the truth and yet he had to endure hearing those descriptions of me day in and day out. His sadness from it reflected in his everyday life, he was upset. And all this because I had left that OTHER human and wounded his ego, and then that’s when the thought occurred to me: “If I’m gone my treasure will have peace”.

And then I went forward with that thought

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I can proudly say that I have come far, I have grown from this experience and I have come to realization that I should face adversity and all the sorrow with strength and a smile. I talked with my treasure and explain all the things and clarified everything as best as I knew how, I never have lied or broken a promise to him in the past and I didn’t see why I should change that. He understood and remembers many things that only a handful of people knew. His smile came back! I figured that the best revenge was to live my life and let the words slide down my back as the water drops on a duck’s back does! I am happy to-day, I am loved to-day, I am trusted to-day, I AM LIVING TO-DAY!

And as for the OTHER human what is he left with? Money he has, property, and so many other material things but he is alone, friends or lover are not crossing his path to-day.

Yes I’m fully aware that life brings sorrows and hardships but guess what? Life also brings laughter and joy too... To everything in this world there is an opposite, well there you go!

So my life has quite a few hardships and how I conquer them, knowingly that I am not alone, is what makes it all worth it in the end! Because when you are victorious you gain within your pride, your mind, your heart and your soul, because that’s what it’s all about, it DOES get better every day that comes!

Therefore: I came into this world kicking and screaming and I will leave it the same way! I intend on yelling on my death bed “WOOWEE... WHAT A RIDE!”

And I will!